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FiNAL MOVE.
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yes, again, suckah! | | |
| aww guys thats hexsta nice of you. well yeah i havn`t been bloggin` erryday like before .. too much goin` on i guess. gotta focuse on school .. since my middle school days are almost over. buh i guess i have a few things to say .. i`m hurt. &no matter how much we say things are gonna work out i don`t see anythin` changin .. &can`t you see i`m the one takin` this the hardest? i guess i noticed first too. as of righ now i feel like i have no one to turn to .. when something happens, who am i gonna tell? since no one is there? i guess in the end it`s erryone for themselves, huh? i guess you can`t always rely on your friends to be there for you. like janice said, 'friendships never last forever.' &iono what you`re thinkin` but somethin` did happen along the road .. or else why would we be actin` like this? iono where all my friends went .. buh i feel like sht because iono why i lost them. i was obviously replaced &iono how you say i can`t be replaced .. because i was. all those times some of you where talkin` sht about them sayin` how much you HATED them .. suddenly their hangin` offuh your shoulder? &they`re there instead of me? 'these wounds won`t seem to heal .. this pain is just too real .. THERE`S JUST TOO MUCH THAT TiME CANNOT ERASE.' sht guys do you understand that? because that`s how i`m feelin. no matter how much you say things are gonna be better too much has changed and it`s NOT the same. iono WHAT you are talkin` about. &don`t you DARE talk to me about 'friendships are not about lettin` go. it`s not somethin` you can just LET GO.' well yuh know before alla you noticed, i DiD. &i was holdin` on to you THEN when you start NOW when it`s sorta too late for me. don`t act like i wasn`t tryin OK, don`t put that bullshit ON ME. because i KNOW you can`t just LET GO. &i DiDN`T. so maybe before you open your mouth you should think about that. &ONE OF YOU iS JUST GETTiN iN THE WAY ERRYTIME I GET CLOSE &iT`S ANNOYiN` &iF YOU GUYS DON`T WANT ME AROUND THEN ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS SAY SO .. BECAUSE HONESTLY SOMETiMES I DON`T THINK IT`S ME NOT WANTIN` YOU THERE, BUH IT`S YOU NOT WANTIN` ME THERE. &SHUT UP BECAUSE I`M THE FOURTH WHEEL.
TO RHEA: A LONG WHILE BACK THE ONLY BiG FRiENDSHiP I HAD WAS YOURS. YOUR THE ONLY ONE I EVER HAD NICKNAMES WITH, AND SAYINS OR INSIDE JOKES. &ALL THOSE TIMES I CRIED I WENT TO YOU, &YOU ONLY. BUH EVEN THEN YOU DIDN`T ALWAYS GO TO ME .. &I DIDN`T HAVE A PROBLEM WITH IT. &SOMETIMES YOU WOULD TRIP WHEN I GOT CLOSER TO SOMEONE ELSE. BUH ALL THOSE TIMES YOU TRIED TO GET CLOSE TO CHRIS &ALL THOSE JOKES &SHT YOU HAD WITH HIM, YOU DIDN`T SEE ME SAY ANYTHIN. SAME WITH TATIANA &OTHER PEOPLE. DO YOU WONDER WHY I HAVE SO MUCH INSIDE SHT WITH OTHER PEOPLE NOW? MAYBE IT`S CAUSA THAT. &UP THERE WHEN IT SAYS 'ALL THOSE TIMES YOU WERE SAYIN` YOU HATED THEM &NOW THEY`RE HANGIN` OFFUH YOUR SHOULDER' I WAS REFERRIN` TO TATIANA. HMM &AS I RECALL THE ONLY REASON YOU NEVER REALLY LIKED HER WAS BECAUSE SHE WAS GETTIN` BETWEEN YOU AND CHRIS. HOW IS SHE ALL THE SUDDEN EVERYWHERE?
TO MYRA: SOMETIMES YOU GET ON MY NERVES BUH FRIENDSHIP WISE .. I DON`T THINK I EVER HAD A PROBLEM. MAYBE IT WAS ALWAYS ME DOIN` THE BLAMIN` ON YOU &I`M SORRY. I DON`T SEE YOU EVER TALKIN` SHT ABOUT ANYONE. &I`M SORRY IF YOU WERE LEFT OUT. I WAS TOO &THAT`S WHY WE WENT TO EACHOTHER.
TO CHRISTY: YOU INTERFERRED W. ME &RHEA &THEN IT WAS OK .. BUH NOW IT`S GONE A LIL` TOO FAR. &I`M STARTIN` TO GET CLOSER TO MYRA, BUH THEN LOOK, YOU`RE SUDDENLY THERE &YOU`RE IN MY WAY .. AGAIN. MAYBE THAT`S MY PROBLEM W. YOU? YOU`RE BOUNCIN` OFFUH PEOPLE TOO MUCH. YOU DON`T HAVE STEADY FRIENDSHIPS. &YOU CAN`T KEEP DOIN` IT. I`M NOT SAYIN` YOUR NOT A GOOD FRIEND ..CAUSE YOU ARE. BUH THAT STUFF IS TRUE.
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| heeeyy guys. it`s been awhile haha. too much has happened .. TOO much to blog about. so yes i wont talk about it .. this last week i`ve been doin` a lot of THiNKiN`. yeah .. look what my mommy brittany said: 'hmm.. my daughTEL has a point. STARTiNG ALL 0VER AGAiN.' so yeah. see?guys .. no one understands me when i say i wanna go there .. just a few. it`s all about startin` FRESH. it`s tearin` me up haha .. it`s so confusing .. &stupidly it hurts when i think about it .. buh the point is maybe it`ll be BETTER for me. yannoe? i`m driftin` away from so many people .. &some things aren`t the same. it`s weird .. awkward .. it hurts. &some people just HATE me. haha. well duh. hhhaaatteerrss! it makes me happy though. new &BETTER opportunities .. haha. yeeeaaah!! buh yeah .. ya`ll know i love yah! w. all my <3! lol. duuhh! losers. haha jp. | | |
| heyyy guys. wsup? it`s MARCH. guess who`s birthday is commin` up? RHEA`S OF COURSE! wooo i`m so excited. oh yeeah, FDC. comp`s almost here. SO STOP FCKiN` AROUND, PiT. haha jp jp. really though. GET SERiOUS. anyway .. today was khoo .. actually no haha it sucked. fckin` people are gettin` on my nerves and school is stressin` me out .. i`m failin` like three subjects and progress reports are soon .. i`ma get KiLT by my parents hahahaha. they`re gonna end up takin` away my comp. and my phone .. fckkkkk. this ain` khoo guys! an i`ma kill mr. davidiuk .. he said he DiDN`T get my homework logs! i TURNED iN TWO! he should be fired! it`s causa HiM my grades are goin` down! shhtt! oh yeah .. made pride-inside buh it`s really no big deal. i feel like droppin` outta school .. buh i`m not accourse. it`s just the way i`m FEELiN. sorry guys, i don`t mean to BTCH. dam .. buh fuhrills .. iono who my friends are anymore? well i know who SOME of them are .. buh i`ve lost a lot in the last month .. or two. it`s kinnda sad. ohh yeah .. myra and i are talkin` again. i`M SORRY MY. you know i love yah. lol. stupid drama! hehe. buh yeah .. anyway? oh wait .. that pretty much sums up errythin .. so yeah .. late. | | |
| i got tired of my other xanga .. so here`s my new xanga .. i`m not bloggin` in the other one anymore. ehhhhhhhhhh .. i had a long day .. buh it wasn`t so great. so i don`t think i`ma blog about it. just not now. maybe later ..
(edit) like i said .. haha. anyway .. so had practice .. wait .. more like sectionals .. pit wen`t through the whole show about four million times .. buh that was khoo. we worked on a lot, even though we STiLL have a lot to clean .. sometimes it sounds dirty .. wen`t to safeway, got lunch. blah blah. actually got to hang out with rhea! some of battery watched us too, while we played. it was khoo .. something`s bugged me though. iono why? pretty weird .. but who cares. and thats it. (/edit) | | |
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